Right now I am, well not happy, but still good. Today was a tiresome day but it was a good day in the end. This morning I was really tired and just wished the day would end but now I'm wide awake and almost happy. I feel like I could stay up all night just listening to music but I don't want tomorrow to come so I'll go to sleep. Tomorrow can be a great day, but I'll be away from him most of the day at least which is sad. Coming back on Sunday....have to wait so long to see him....but it'll be great just because I'll see him again. Just gotta bear till then. Holding back the tears. Is it too sad to smile and cry at the same time? What if all of it is just in my head and I'll crash hard when I find out? I just gotta keep on smiling and enjoy every moment of this, even if it's not real.
But now I need sleep! And by that I mean I'm gonna curl up with a book and read till my eyes close (laugh) Good night and sweet dreams! (heart)
