I'm in love

Right now I am, well not happy, but still good. Today was a tiresome day but it was a good day in the end. This morning I was really tired and just wished the day would end but now I'm wide awake and almost happy. I feel like I could stay up all night just listening to music but I don't want tomorrow to come so I'll go to sleep. Tomorrow can be a great day, but I'll be away from him most of the day at least which is sad. Coming back on Sunday....have to wait so long to see him....but it'll be great just because I'll see him again. Just gotta bear till then. Holding back the tears. Is it too sad to smile and cry at the same time? What if all of it is just in my head and I'll crash hard when I find out? I just gotta keep on smiling and enjoy every moment of this, even if it's not real.

But now I need sleep! And by that I mean I'm gonna curl up with a book and read till my eyes close (laugh) Good night and sweet dreams! (heart)

Whoever said it, I want out

   Ääää pääsin vihdoin kattomaan Adlibriksen sivuja ja löysin jo yhden kirjan jonka haluan ostaa XD Just äsken tein tilin ja myöhemmin tänään varmaan tilaan ensimmäisen kirjan :--D Toivon vaan ettei kaikki rahat mee sitten sinne XD Ekaa kertaa nettishoppaillessa, saatan jäädä koukkuun :--D

Tätä kirjaa luen tällä hetkellä, sain sen syntymäpäivälahjaksi~ Ihmissusitarina, ei sellanen mitä yleensä luen, mutta vaikuttaa hyvältä!

Bensaa sataa

   Nyt oikeesti! Oon varmaan miljoona kertaa päättäny alottaa liikunnan ja laihduttamisen mutta ei koskaan toimi. Johtuu siitä että vaadin liikaa heti alussa ja heti jos tulee takapakkia nii annan  koko homman. Mut nyt oikeesti alotan pienellä ja jos tulee takapakkia nii sit vaan alusta! Ja en ota sitä linjaa että ei yhtään herkkuja tai täysin uus terve ruokavalio, multa ei onnistu ja tyhmää kieltää kaikki. Ei oo järkeä elää jos ei nauti mistään. Liika on liikaa tietty, mutta kohtuudella pitäs saada aina. Tänään oon jo alottanut liikuntapuolen ja ens viikolla herkkujen vähentäminen!!

Feel no pain

En ole pystynyt päivittämään blogia koska ei ole ollut konetta jota osaan käyttää, toimivaa nettiä ja olen aina ajatellut että blogipäivityksen pitää olla pitkä ja täynnä kuvia ja muuta joten en ole pystynyt sellaista tekemään, mutta päätin nyt ruveta päivittämään niinkuin päiväkirjaa. Ja sain tabletin ja toimivan netin! Syntymäpäivät olivat äskettäin, sain paljon ihania lahjoja! Mm tämän tabletin (*'w'*)💖 Käytiin myös ystävän kanssa Amarillossa juhlimassa :--) Vappua juhlittiin kaupungilla Äidin, pikkuveljen, tädin ja ystävien kanssa. Istuttiin Tuomiokirkon portailla,käytiin Belgessä syömässä ja sitten kotiin telkkaria katsomaan! Tänään oli sitten lenkki koirien kanssa sateessa XD Nyt The Golden Girls (Tyttökullat) ja tabletilla pelleilyä :----D

Talk to me like lovers do

So I went to the movies with my friend to see The Maze Runner. Honestly I didn't have high expectations, I just picked a movie that seemed the most interesting 'cause I had a movie ticket going old. I actually thought I might even be bored. But when the movie started it got me from the very beginning and I ended up loving it. It was amazing and I was waiting for the second one before the lights came back on. I was hooked. And then I heard there is a book. I had to get my hands on that book, no matter what it takes. I was afraid it was so old it wasn't in the stores anymore or that it hadn't come to Finland at all, which is really funny because the next time I visited Pocket Shop it was there with the new books. And there was also the second and third book! I bought the second, but wanted to wait after I read the second, just in case. So I read the first one and if I hadn't known they were linked I might not have realised it. The book was so different, it seemed like it was a different story with characters that had the same names. Throughout the book I kept thinking it'll turn out the same, the ending had to be the same. But it wasn't. I don't get why they changed it so much, and how they came up with the stuff for the movie? I'd seriously like to know. But the book was good. Really good. I enjoyed it a lot, and at the moment I'm reading the second one; The Scorch Trials~~ I am enjoying it, it's a good book and it feels so good reading something you don't know the ending to. It was a bit tireing with the first book with all the expectations and differences. Though the second book is kinda rough too. I'll have to take a break and read something in between XD And I think it's good to read a different book in between. When you finish a book that has a sequel you of course want to read the sequel, but I think it's good to wait for it a little, mix it up with another book. Yeah okay so I'm really tired and not sure if anything I wrote makes sense, but I've wanted to do this post for some time now and I finally can access to a good computer with a good internet so I really wanted to do this now. Anyway, gonna try post again soon, see ya!

Bitches I hope you know

No pictures 'cause I don't have a good enough computer and only in English 'cause I'm lazy and don't want to translate!

I've been down with the flu for 5 weeks now and it keeps getting worse and worse, but I got antibiotics on Wednesday so hopefully they'll help! Have to go to work either way;;
I've also read a lot! Right now reading Trudi Canavan's The Magician's apprentice which seems really good!
Looking forward to Christmas!! Spend a LOT on presents and gonna spend a lot more XD There'll probably be nothing left for me....but I love buying and giving presents!

Things I'm into right now

-Hollywood Undead
-Instagram
-fantasy books
-Aika Online
-lots and lots of tea
-wool socks
-white hot chocolate
-make up
-mrpokemon and roseshock on Instagram
-losing weight and excercising XD
-writing
-walking in the Autumn weather
-Christmas spirit
-chocolate raisins
-drawing goth style



Tomorrow we're gonna celebrate Father's Day!! It's really on Sunday but we can't celebrate it then, so going over Grandma's tomorrow!

I'm saving up for a pc 'cause my current lap top isn't good for much else besides paying the bills and I can't live without Aika Online, so yeah...

Haven't been up to much, 'cause sick and don't have a good computer, so basically been watching Friends and reading.... Hopefully get something better to post here soon ;;

Oh, I'm going to do a post about this adorable little shop called Luca! Look forward to it!!

P.S. I hate that I can't use almost any marks that aren't letters in blogger....

Happiness

It's weird how life can change in an instant. I mean I always thought I can't have kids because of my mental disease, that I would never be reliable, that there would be no certainty I could take care of anyone. But there's never certainty. You could die in an instant, get hit by a car or get shot or fall down. You could be in a plane crash, be part of a bank robbery, get raped. You could lose your mind, go totally psycho. You can never be sure.
But it shouldn't mean you shouldn't have kids, shouldn't start a family, shouldn't love. You can go crazy or die any second. You should take what you can. If you love someone you should be with them, tell them that, because you're gonna regret if you don't. I'm one to talk, sure, but you shouldn't through your life away because you're not perfect. No one is. Everyone has their problems, you just need to find the one who can take it, who will stick with you no matter what you do, what you're like. So what if you have psychosis, or cancer, depression, bionic legs, eating disorder. It doesn't mean you don't deserve the same things, the same happiness. You deserve to have everything you want, so you should do everything to get it. Life's a bitch, you never know when your time is due, so take everything you can get because you'll regret later, even if you don't get it all, if you don't try you'll regret it for all eternity.